Johny, 44- Las Vegas, NV

“Some of us are just here because we make bad choices.I’ve been on the streets for nine months now. I can get around on my own.  I go to dumpsters, I’ll find shit, I’ll fix it. I’ve always been handy. I can fix about anything I touch. I’ll just find somebody to buy it. I don’t rob, steal, cheat or lie to get it. My granddaddy always said the best place to find a helping hand was at the end of your own arm. I get all my shit legitimately and honestly. If I do without, it’s cause I fucked up. I was too high and didn’t do anything. I don’t know. I’ve owned businesses. I’ve been a home builder, a framer,  I just need to get certified here to do it.”


johny2


“I was in a foster home when I was 5 and 6. After that, I was adopted and lived in a poverty-stricken home with a drunk hillbilly stepfather and a strict religious mother. I was in poverty and hungry, so I started selling dope. I made a good living doing it and never got busted for it. Everything else I did I got busted for. I’ve brushed by death quite a few times. I stopped my heart three times by the time I was 21 just from overdosing. I’ve been in 7 car wrecks where I’ve rolled my car. I did a lot of dumb shit. I went to prison for 8 years for carrying concealed weapons. It felt like forever and a lifetime. I was selling guns and dope and that’s when I quit. I’ve just made bad choices. I’ve gotten a domestic battery charge, I’ve made mistakes. I knew better, I just didn’t care. Now it’s too late to care. I have asthma, Bronchitis, first stage of emphysema, Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease. That’s just my life.”


johny3


“I’m at rock bottom. That’s how I feel sometimes. Sometimes I just want to blow my fucking brains out and be done with it. Fate tells me there’s some reason to hang around. I still get high. I know what I’m doing is wrong. I like the dope. I like the way it makes me feel. That’s why I liked it when I was young. I just felt like I didn’t fit in anywhere so I got high and would fit in with everybody. But now, you sit back and look at all you’ve lost and how you let yourself become what you’ve become. I live a lot in the past. I do that because I’m scared to look towards the future. I’ve been sick for nine years, I don’t have much time left and I don’t have much hope for myself.”

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